I love you, and that's all I know.

I promised to myself I'd never go back with you, no matter how much I loved u, or how much I need you.

I used to repeat to myself that I loved you, but I was better without you.

I don't know if that's true.

But I don't wanna try . Not again.

I like it this way.

Do u like it his way ?

Cuz I love it this way. !

Strenght

Please.
Give me strenght.

Please, let me look at them, and be happy for them.
This can't be THAT hard, right?

All I have to think is that..she's my best friend, I want him to be happy. And if they're happy together, well, go ahead.

:)

Yes, i need u.
Yes, i miss u.
But at least i know i did something for myself.
It wont last forever. The day i dont need u and i dont miss u anymore will be here sooner or later.
For now, goodbye. U were not good. I thought u were all i wanted.
So..i guess i was wrong.

..

It wasnt how i planned it to be.
I don't really know what I feel anymore.
He was everything i wanted, but he screwed up and now its over.
But he, the other he, well..he makes me happy, he makes me smile. But i'm not really sure i love him. I dont wanna lose him, but i still miss too much the boy i thought loved me. It seems like he didn't..how dissapointing, huh? I still love him, and, for now...i just need to forget him, by tring to love the amazing boy that really loves me.

Is just that..i dont really want to get over him.
At least, not for now.

Love me or leave me, but don't stay here if you simply don't care.

Ya no te extra;o. Cada vez se hace mas facil. Cada vez es mas facil hacer q no pasa nada. Cada vez es mas facil ignorar lo que dices.
Ya soy capaz de distraerme con otras cosas. Ya no soy una psicopata patetica obsesionada con verte...
Ya es facil no pensar en ti.
Cada vez es mas como un ciego que nacio de esa forma...nunca vio nada, no sabe que es el mundo..entonces no puede extra;arlo. Asi me siento.
Entre menos te veo, mas facil se vuelve esto.

Razones

Te echo de menos, le digo al aire..
te busco, te pienso, te siento y siento que como tu no habra nadie.
Y aqui te espero, con mi cajita de la vida, cansada, a oscuras, con miedo y este frio, nadie me lo quita.
Tengo razones para buscarte...
tengo necesidad de verte, de oirte, de hablarte.
Tengo razones para esperarte, porque no creo que haya en el mundo nadie mas a quien ame.
Tengo razones..razones de sobra para pedirle al viento que vuelvas..
aunque sea como una sombra.
Tengo razones para no quererte olvidar..porque el trocito de felicidad fuiste tu quien me lo dio a probar.

Choices

Human Life is made up of Choices.

Yes or no.

Up or Down.

In or Out.

Run or stay.

And there are the choices that matter..:

Love or Hate.

Be a hero, or be a coward.

Fight or give in.

Live or Die.

...Live or Die...

That's the most important choice

...and It's not always on our hands.

Holdin On To Life

Aveces malgastamos el tiempo y nos creemos demasiado poco. Y malgastamos nuestra vida, lo unico que tenemos.

Las horas pasan demasiado lento o demasiado rapido, y nada es lo suficiente.

Cuando hay muchas personas que luchan por tener la mitad de lo que nosotros tenemos.

Cuando hay mucha personas que estan luchando por sobrevivir.

What if..?

Que pasaria si mis peores miedos se hicieran realidad??
Que pasaria si me dejas d kerer y te olvidas d todo en vavaciones, y caes en cuenta que puedes facilmente encontrar una mucho mejor y mucho mas bonita?
Que pasaria? Aunq me digas y me repitas q no va a pasar, realmente, q tan segura puedo estar?
Por eso estoy rara.
No es tan facil ignorar lo q pasa contigo.

Dame una sonrisa y te dare felicidad.

Dame una lagrima y dejaras de llorar.

Dame una razon y me quedare por siempre aqui.

Dame un beso y veras que soy capaz...

Solo no me mientas.

Dame una mentira y te dare el infierno.

Dame una mentira y veras que tan mala y dificil puede ser la vida.

I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure.

I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle.

But, if you can't handle me at my worst,

then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

Todo..o nada.

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?

If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?

YOU ARE THE ONLY EXECEPTION

Por ti me bajo de mi nube, de mi lugar, de mi comodidad.

Life gets Easier once You stop Worrying about being PERFECT

La frase del titulo de la entrada es totalmente verdad. El problema llega cuando no se es capaz de dejar de pensar en eso y de dejar de pensar que es eso lo correcto. Que pasa cuando cada celula de tu cuerpo grita por perfeccion? Es simplemente imposible ignorarlas. No importa cuanto mal sepas que te hace, simplemente tienes que seguir lo que te dice cada parte de tu ser, cada celula de tu cuerpo, cada nuerona de tu cerebro. No puedes ignoraralas y pensar que de esa manera viviras mejor, y simplemente no es tan facil como decir que no vas a pensar mas en eso y lograrlo. Que pasa si tu estas seguro/a que la perfeccion es la solucion? Que pasa si la perfeccion es lo que falta?

Mi vida es regida por la perfeccion, si la dejo a un lado, no tendre mas porq luchar. Es por eso q no puedo dejar ese pensamiento de lado. Ese pensamiento es mi piso. Es mi principio y mi final...es lo que rige mi vida.

Sin ese pensamiento no hay nada.

Por mucho dolor que me cause, y por mucho mal que me haga...es la verdad.

This.is.not.Ok

People say there's one thing that will always happen: u love someone, and u like someone else. But it's simply NOT ok! I mean, if u love someone, u have to like every part of him and u have to have eyes for ONLY him!!! Right?? This is simply not ok. No, no, no.
What if I start liking him more?
No. It cant happen.
I wont let it happen.
Right?
But what if I cant?
What if it's too big for me?

Cuando el dolor es demasiado para pararte cada dia,
cuando el dolor es demasiado para tragarte las lagrimas,
y cuando el dolor es demasiado para dejar de sentir...bueno, si, es un problema...y ese es el momento en el que debemos, mas que hacer lo que por naturaleza hacemos, pensar y analizarlo un poko mas...no dejarnos caer...pq una vez que se cae, es casi imposible volver a levantarse.
Ahi es cuando llega el momento de analizar las opciones que tienes.
Llega el momento de intentar ver las cosas con otros ojos..alejarte un pokito de los demas, darle tiempo al tiempo y concentrarte en mas cosas. No pensar demasiado, tarde o temprano el dolor se ira.
Esa es mi forma, claro. Todos tenemos diferentes formas de lidiar con el dolor...basta con mirar hacia adentro, basta con intentar conocerte por completo, y podras saber la forma de hacer que ese dolor se haga mas aguantable, o hasta que desaparezca.

Y lo uniko que espero es no verlos caer jamas.

Just amazing

Before I fall down
Before I break,
I would like to say how much pain one can take.

Is amazing the way we stand every day...

Is amazing the way we swallow our tears...

Is amazing the way we can stop feelling...

Is amazing the way we can love, we can hate and we can forgive...

Dont u think?

I know I should've thinked before I acted.

But common sense is not as common as everybody says...

Promise?

Live!
Do u promise me u will do anything to make it better?

Love!
Do u pomise me that u will REALLY try?

Laugh!
Do u promise me you will not harm ur self anymore?

Viva la vida! :)
Do u promise me u will make it worthy?

Do you promise?

Promise.

And at least I will know I have something to hope for

R.I.D.I.C.U.L.A

Siempre buskndo caerle bien a los demas, hacer las cosas por los demas, darles lo que buscan...hacerlos sentir bien...eso es aceptable. Eso es mas como: dejare de ser egoista y te dare lo que kieras, hare cosas por ti y no pensare mas en mi. Creo que eso lo hacemos, al menos, una vez al dia.
Pero que pasa cuando ya no se trata de eso sino...de ser suficiente para los demas? Como se llama eso? Como se llama cuando ya no hacemos las cosas por nosotros mismos, para sentirnos bien con nosotros mismos sino para llenar las espectativas que tienen respecto a ti? Que pasa cuando una de tus mayores obseciones y deseos es hacer orgullosos a tus progenitores y...lo intentas con todas tus fuerzas pero siempre vueleves a caer, pq simplemente no es suficiente?
Q haces? Seguir intentando escuchar un: 'Que orgulloso/a estoy de ti, te amo'..u olvidarte de ellos y hacerlo todo por y para ti?
Es simplemente RIDUCULO.

What is love without lust?

I.Don't.Care

Lets see...well, i loved you (as friends, of course). Yes, u were my floor and u know that. And I should have chosen u, i know that [Well, i dont really like the word CHOOSE..cuz it is too...too for objects. No one is an object]. I know that friends ALWAYS come first. [Did u know that he is my FRIEND, before anything else?] But I chose him. Yes, I did. Ok...I was especting that. I was expecting and waiting for the day u will say 'him or us'. And I was thinking about that question for son long i did thought about ALL the consequences. I knew u would hate me, I would lose u...I knew I would be how I am. I knew it. But u know why I 'chose' him? Fist of all, I love him. Second of all, hey, u have urselfs, i mean ure NOT alone. U have ur friends and someone to hang around. So, just tell me, that i wanna know: who would he hang around if I let him alone? Just tell me..who? And who would take him seriously? Who would try to make him and his life better? Who will not just laughs at him? Who will understand him and not just put him as a FUCKING emo? I am not ABLE to say NO to him. In that moment, in the moment I had the choice to say 'I want my friends rather than him' i didnt..u know why? Not beacuse i was hypocrite or that I didn't care about what u felt. Is just that for the FIRST time in my life, I was going to do, not the best for me, but for someone else. Because u did not lose anything when I lose u. No, I'm no one. It was not easy, but here I am. I lost u, but I won someone who i can tell absolutely EVERYTHING and ANYTHING. There are not tabu's.
Now, I'm livin the consequences of action, of my decision. Im not COMPLAINING about it! Cuz i simply knew it will happen LIKE THIS. AND I DONT REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY ARE U LIKE THAT! WITH ALL THAT ANGER AND...THIRST FOR REVANGE. Ok, i hurt u. But can we go to that day by fighting or could we make it better like that? Really, I dont think so. I dont understand why cant u just let it go. I NEVER ASKED TO YOU TO BE MY FRIENDS AGAIN. NEVER. I just said sorry, that was all. I did not beg you to be part of u again. Did I? Did I? NO! Do u want me to beg?? And u know why I didn't do it? Because with the decission I made I knew I would lose u and im just accepting the punishment i receive for doing what i did. Not beacuse im proud, come on.. [U, YOU of all people shouldn't have said that..have u looked at u at the mirror?], If it was proudness, believe me..i will just forget about EVERYTHING to get u back again. And i dont really care if u write again about me and say 'hey this is hard? well, is the truth'. Beacuse nothing cares ANYMORE! I just thought u were mature enough to let it go and forget about it and just ignore us. Maybe I was wrong. I WAS WRONG.

I tried to do it, but u seem to want to keep that inside. Whatever. Do whatever u want. I already cared too much about it.

And I also just DONT CARE about them. They can't do anything anymore, anyway.

Darkness always turns into Light

I love you

Light in my road..

I know I can’t help you. That castle you built can only be open from the inside. And I’m on the outside. What can I do? All I see I can do is saying things like: Hey, I’m here for you. You know o can lay on me whenever you want…I’m pretty sure you know that right? And, for now, until (if)you decide to open the gates of ur castle, I will have to stay were I am, preying for a miracle that makes that pain disappears, that makes your tears go away and your smile come back again. I’m sorry I cannot do anything. I’m sorry for not being able to help or to make things better, not even knowing how cold it is inside ur castle. Am I wrong? Tell me if that castle isn’t cold and dark…and oppressing, and a prison, instead of ur home.
But, remember that there’s always a light at the end of the road. (A fact: U’re the light in my road)
When u feel ur world is crashing down, I’ll be here to help u get it up again. And when u feel ur falling down, dont doubt and come to me. I'll always do my best to help u be ok again.